HAPPY DIWALI!!

The atmosphere is festive and cheerful. I celebrate Diwali with my PC (which is not even personal!!!damn!!). Anyways do not assume that I am a lonely " bechari" girl who sits alone on a day like Diwali typing (almost) rubbish onto a PC(which has never till today reacted to any crap I've written onto it!!!). The only reason I am taking some time off is because I am tired of keeping a smile on my face since morning, greeting guests(some of them are nothing better than strangers!!), serving water and replying to their annoying questions. " What do you do?" "So how many years to go?" "When is your exam starting\ending(along with when is the Timetable coming, how many holidays in between and also till an extent of when will the result come?"!!!!! Okay now suddenly I find myself "bechari"!!!!

That, however, was just a part of the celebrations. Not to forget the gifts these annoyingly essential guests bring together with them;-) The fireworks in the sky are almost making the stars feel inferior! The loud sounds of the crackers just reflect the enthusiasm with which the nation celebrates this festival! The diyas always attracted me.

I have to go back ans smile a lot again.(gosh my jaw hurts!!) lolzz!! Whatever be the case I cannot deny that I enjoyed the day!!

TODAY!!

Hmmm...will keep it short today!
"Today's fortune:Your winsome smile will be your sure protection"
Ok now I get it!! I dont even have a winsome smile(with one tooth,which is black, stealing the attension from the winsome part of my smile!!) no wonder I had nothing to protect me from all the misfortune that came my way today!!

Ok this is the summary(i mean I'll keep it literally short unlike the reference books which have a 2 page summary!!) of the day!

We were to "celebrate" Diwali in college today and for that wear something traditional! The celebration ended with the clothes itself!!!(hahaha!!) I had worn my pathetically pricky, pointed mojaries!! The entire day my heart beated in my toes as with each step the mojaries poked me a little deeper!

Waited for mum for 30minutes (with the stupid mojaries still on!!) for something as measly as "diwali shopping"!!!! Damn the sound of the fire crackers does not amuse me any longer(infacct it irritates me!!).

I can smell the pav bhaji that is being coocked in my kitchen but am not hungry!!!(yeah I am slighty dizzy though!!)

Hoping that tomorrow will not be as bad!

CHEERS!!!!!(coz koi gham bada gham nahi!!!)

Mission Freedom!

Time to free myself. Free myself from all the notions I once believed in. Just when you think you can finally control your life, you realize that life is something you can never play against!!
The best way out is to join "Life's" team!! The sooner you stop competing with life you realize that happiness is your neighbour!

When I was in school I was taught that the world is a beautiful place with kind people and truthful justice. When I entered my Diploma college I found out that the school teachings were nothing but theoretical statements. The world was full of wrong, injustice and sin. Now, however, I have learnt that no matter how wrong the world is you always have a reason to celebrate. The reason is YOU. You are the one who can be right amongst all the wrongs!

It's not as easy as it sounds! It is one hell of a task! To be nice when everyone misunderstands your niceness to be your weekness is not easy! To not expect from people when you most need help is not easy! To continue to do good without expecting any good in return is not easy!

There came a time in my life when I realized that the world was flat! I looked before me. The world stood in front of me smiling at me. I looked behind and I saw no one! I gasped!! Took time to understand what was going on. The solution could not have been simpler. I walked to the side where the world stood! Now I am in the crowd again!!

Okay now enough of this heavy senti talk...there is one important confession I need to make!!!! I think I have started enjoying Himesh Reshamiya songs!!!!(Am I supposed to feel guilty??!!!!!!).

Before I leave Cheers to the person who whispered in my ear "Koi gham bada gham nahi hai!!!"

Long Day!

Its been a long day,literally! I am awake since 2.30am without a blink of sleep(right now it is 9 oclock!)!! Things are very blurred after 17 sleepless hours!

Writing assignments, reading mails with the subject screaming out "Amup test"(okay I sent that one!!) or "SE Report" etc etc. How I hate term ends! Another thing I hate is guys who join "LOVE" community on orkut! What the hell,is it some Rajashri Productions movie going on? I know I am not writing anything really worth reading, but I have nothing better to do(I am sure you dont either,else you would'nt have visited my blog!!) .

Life never gives a "free lecture"(its so much better if you get to just sign the attendance,hahaha!!!) so no matter how tired or mentally shattered you are(besides being physically shattered too) life will teach you something in its own special way! Got my lessons for the day(which,not to forget,has been annoyingly long!). No, I am not going to mention all the stuff here,have some mercy on me I am barely alive!

One thing however I want to mention is the virtual star I saw today. It was just wires running from the top of one building to another. They beautifully almost took the form of a star! A beautiful coincidence. I wonder whether it holds any value but I feel special every time I encounter things that you normally dont notice! I know its crazy (if you have been reading my blogs you probably know I am wierd) but I feel special everytime I recieve a wrong number!!!! Dont panick, dont close the window,please give me a chance to explain! Its just that you are not the intended person to be called,and from all the telephone numbers that exist and even those that dont(you can try the permutations and combinations if you are a math champ,hahaha!!) the callee picked your number!! Thats too big to be a coincidence! I feel some huge,mighty power is playing a game! In those few seconds of conversation with a stranger I try to imagine the person,his life and his intension of placing the call!!!

Okay I was scraping two people on orkut. They have both stopped answering my scraps and whats more,they are now scrapping one another!!!! Phew! I sit lonely,almost sleeping to the tunes of Bryan Adams." please forgive me, I cant stop loving you"!!!

Yes, please do forgive me! As I explained, I have had a rough day so if I've just blogged some real stupid stuff-please forgive me!

Will meet you soon!

Me in the mind!

There is an unusually long queue at the doctor today. As I sit on this uncomfortable chair looking outside I can see the dark sky with a lonely star striving to shine. Its a full moon night today. The moon however has been gobbled by some beast of a buliding!!

My tooth is giving me a pathetic pain everytime I eat something sweet!! It just reminds me of the "Zwiiiinnnnnggggggg" sound of that drill!!!!! Damn I have many things to worry about already!

Life is not miserable yet but I guess its just on its way to become so!!! I just realize that I have been wearing my sad sky blue pajamas all day long today...and whats more I've coupled it with a sky blue tee-shirt!! I am looking like a carry catcher of the sky!! My hair is oiled just to avoid further "bahambaham" effect(dont worry if you did'nt understand that...you were not supposed to!!!).

Anyways the clock clicks on and I guess my mercy break is over now. Time to get back to "Autocorrelation and Cross correla......blah blah blah!!!!"

Will meet you soon again!

Nothings gonna change my love for u!!

Suddenly found this song adorable! Completely captured my heart...could'nt stop myself from blogging it!! Strange that I never really heard it carefully till today!!

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me nowI don't want to live without you!!!!

Metal Teeth!!

Finally back again!! Feeling so much at home with this blogger page open before me,almost like sunshine to my soul!!! The moment I logged in it looked at me sulkily saying "Last post 27th September,2006". Made me feel as if it missed me!!

The last entire week has been full of memories, be it kicking a small pebble all the way from college to the station(though after all these efforts it fell in a gutter!!) or be it cursing Pressman(for all those pitiful souls who do not know him,he is an author of the most creative book on Software Engineering!!). Last week during Dussera I could almost see Pressman in place of Ravan(yeah ok I know thats totally immature but what the hell I am not a character from one of those daily soaps...I have my gray shades too!!).

Last week has not exhausted me only with huge reference books,I have been thinking over a lot of other things too. I wonder who decides the right and the wrong. Is it the mythological books or the Society? Well, in my case I decide the wrongs and the rights for my deeds. I belive that a person should be responsible enough to judge himself without bias. Your biggest judge is your own conscience. I have always lived by my rules and have (hopefully) been a good human being!! Now, however, there are certain things which I want to do which are wrong!! Why do I want to do them if they are not right? If I want to do them then who decides they are wrong!!

The only answer that I could figure was that "the baby cannot eat more than 2 chocolates because that will give him cavity in future!!" Damn, why cant God give us metal teeth!!! So I guess I am my own nanny and I have to stop myself from eating all the chocolates at a time! Maybe eating one each day will be more fun,maybe that will keep me waiting anxiously for tomorrow!

Though the whirlpool of thoughts inside me quickly changes its direction the rest of the world remains unaffected. People still shit on the Mahim railway tracks(disgusting,both them for doing it and me for mentioning it!!), the coffee in the canteen still tastes the same, mum still makes yummy strawberry shake, I still copy assignements etc etc.

Before I leave a word with my Gods. "Thank You for giving me a brain along with a heart! Thank You for loving me and pampering me and giving me the strength to think right. Thank You for making this beautiful world and giving me a chance to live it!! Though I have just one complaint,You could have given me metal teeth!!"